Oh the rain
keeps a-fallin’, as the great Freddy Fender sang…
was Jersey coastal exploration. Alan Cabal had heard somewhere about a ghost
town called Seabreeze, full of stray dogs, down there on the far side of the
state of New Jersey, along the Delaware Bay. That part of the Garden State has,
in places, a Lost World loneliness about it. There are saltwater bogs, and amidst
them squat shacks sun-bleached into a sullen grayness that huddle amidst cattails
at the ends of roads. (You can theorize about what goes on in these cockeyed
shelters. Madwomen stare out from the windowpanes and commune with the flashing
buoys offshore. Fishermen stomp in with shotguns on windy mornings, and blast
their fathers-in-law, and no one ever knows.)
So we tumbled
downstate like a marble in Cabal’s vile old Chrysler. Cleared, first, the
Lincoln Tunnel, then ground in serious rainy traffic along the turnpike, both
of us muzzy after a Friday night. Gathered steam south of Metuchen when the
traffic started to flow through the spittle, and finally there we were–Cumberland
County, on the other side of the Great Egg Harbor River and Atlantic City and
the Pine Barrens and the world. New Jersey in my experience is like a pool table
with a bad tilt. If you’re a smart ball, you tend to roll down to the southeast
corner and south-central flank, where the land grows damp with the thought of
all that surrounding water. There’s the bay, first of all, which funnels
up toward the north and the west to narrow into the Delaware River. But also
there’s the Atlantic Ocean beyond Cape May, and on the other end of the
scale of magnitude, there are the Stow and Back and Cedar and Nantuxent Creeks
and the Cohansey and Maurice and Manumuskin Rivers, which you’ll see on
your map as scrawls of blue penetrating up into the mass of Jersey. Sometimes
when you’re down there you’re also breathing air that not long ago
hovered over the Chesapeake, which isn’t far to the west. It’s on
the Maryland side of Delaware’s narrow throat, the part of the state that
contains Saint Georges and Delaware City.
off the turnpike, Cabal bunched over the wheel and sucking cigarettes into his
unshaven face and grinning and bobbing his head and chortling yah hah hah
hah hah hah hah! in anticipation.
if there’s fucked-up dogs in Seabreeze, don’t make any sudden motions,"
Cabal instructed as he drove. "Just get sloowwwly back into the
fucking car. And if, as soon as we drive in, the beasts surround us, the hell
with it. Do not leave the fucking vehicle."
sits at the end of a tiny spur that spins off Rte. 601 east of Fairton and wends
through swamps after you ride through the flats around places like Vineland
and Millville–through the radish and turnip and corn fields, glorying in
you ride, also, through the new autoparks and shopping trashscapes that replace
the fields. Orchards staked out with surveyor’s tape, transforming themselves
into subdivisions: a stupid, and quintessentially American, variety of extinction.
I are both fans of H.P. Lovecraft, the great New England horror writer of the
early 20th century, and we had on our minds that weekend his great story "The
Shadow over Innsmouth." It’s about a tourist–the narrator–who’s
compelled to visit the Innsmouth of the title, an isolated coastal Massachusetts
town he’s been warned to avoid. But he can’t help himself. He’s
got to see the place for some reason; he’s got that crazy Innsmouth feeling
in his bones. He hops a bus and wanders the mostly abandoned, decaying and fantastically
creepy municipality, occasionally running into baleful and vile-looking natives.
fans will be familiar with the tale’s great premise. Apparently, Innsmouth’s
good country people took, generations ago, to mating with the immortal "Deep
Ones" who live underwater, beyond the reef off the town’s coast. Our
narrator, in the course of the day in Innsmouth, learns more about the place’s
secret than he should, and makes a narrow escape. He subsequently discovers,
after leaving, something very disconcerting about–
said. Read the story yourself. There’s a lot going on in "The Shadow
over Innsmouth": fear of miscegenation and tainted bloodlines and a lot
of sexual anxiety. I don’t want to give too much away–you should
read this tale–but Lovecraft’s working a serious Freudian theme,
too. The idea of the death impulse comes into play–that desire to return,
in death, to the sheltering womb, to the watery timeless eternal oblivion that’s
approximated by the Deep Ones’ underwater lair. And you’ve got the
fear of the Other (as the sophomores love to put it), and the concomitant fear
that one’s infected by the Other.
One of the
things I like most about the story, though, is Lovecraft’s preoccupation
with the town’s geography. Consider this passage, which occurs when the
narrator encounters, to his relief, another out-of-towner, in this case a boy
who’s employed by an Innsmouth grocery: "Warning me that many of the
street signs were down, the youth drew for my benefit a rough but ample and
painstaking sketch map of the town’s salient features. After a moment’s
study I felt sure that it would be of great help, and pocketed it with profuse
thanks… My programme, I decided, would be to thread the principal streets,
talk with any non-natives I might encounter, and catch the eight o’ clock
coach for Arkham. The town, I could see, formed a significant and exaggerated
example of communal decay; but being no sociologist I would limit my serious
observations to the field of architecture."
about Innsmouth screams GET OUT–but this guy doesn’t care. No, what
he wants is to traipse around as if with a Baedeker, an aficionado appreciating
a handsome facade here, a well-wrought cornice there. The fact is, he’s
fascinated with the town’s mystique, by Innsmouth as a unique–if uniquely
unsettling–physical place. "Recrossing the gorge on the Main Street
bridge," he relates, "I struck a region of utter desertion which somehow
made me shudder. Collapsing huddles of gambrel roofs formed a jagged and fantastic
skyline, above which rose the ghoulish, decapitated steeple of an ancient church.
Some houses along Main Street were tenanted, but most were tightly boarded up.
Down unpaved side streets I saw the black, gaping windows of deserted hovels,
many of which leaned at perilous and incredible angles through the sinking of
part of the foundations…
Street was as deserted as Main, though it differed in having many brick and
stone warehouses still in excellent shape…"
And so on.
The physical descriptions of the town go on and on. Joyce once, in discussing
Ulysses, remarked that if Dublin burned to the ground you could rebuild
it on the basis of Joyce’s descriptions. Maybe, but you’d have an
easier time building Lovecraft’s Innsmouth from scratch. A place can hum
with power, Lovecraft’s suggesting. Each singular place has its own holy
energy, offers its own unique resistance to the human consciousness, which is
incapable of mastering it, of comprehending the mysterious extent of its meanings.
You wonder at the extent to which Lovecraft had absorbed–in order to invert
into something pessimistic and dark–the lessons of his New England forebears,
the Transcendentalists. The world vibrates with energy, even if a ghastly one–sinister
warehouses and deserted hovels as well as blades of grass. No less than Walden,
"The Shadow over Innsmouth" takes its place in the canon of reverent
literary treatments of place.
Cabal and I sought an experience of place similar to the one Innsmouth offered
Lovecraft’s narrator. Naively, we hoped to find a place that thrummed with
singularity and power and meaning.
was, Seabreeze wasn’t really there. We drove through bogs. Every
couple minutes rain lashed the windshield, slowing us to where our progress
assumed a ritualistic significance. We were acolytes approaching an altar. We
saw no other cars or people, which was remarkable after the festering turnpike
and the suburban slums through which we’d passed. Finally, Cabal brought
the car to a halt, because our progress was blocked by a tree that sprawled
over the two-lane roadway. We stepped out into the day, which was acrid with
the smell of vegetation, and inspected. It was hard to see why the tree was
there. The trunk disappeared into the woods, so we couldn’t see whether
it had been cut, or split by lightning or uprooted in a windstorm.
squinted, pointed, smoked. "That’s weird, man. That’s fucking
weird. That tree should not be there. I’m getting the distinct
sense that someone does not want us coming to this town. That is weird."
Alan’s other theory–besides Seabreeze being overrun by Deep Ones–was
that South Jersey hillbillies maintained a meth lab there. Such people can be
prone to enforce a certain level of seclusion. "There’s no way you’re
gonna tell me someone didn’t put that tree there on purpose. No way."
out his cigarette and we climbed back into the car and drove on the shoulder
of the road around the obstruction. Crawled along for another couple hundred
yards, with woods to the left of us and a crop field to the right, separated
from the road by a margin of lime-green grass. We had the sense that we were
intruding here on many varieties of solitude. (There is, in fact, a horrifying
solitude about an empty tilled field.) Soon the pavement ended and we inched
up to a fork in the road. A gate blocked the right fork–so we took the
left, and wallowed at 4 mph over dirt, the Chrysler pigging in mud puddles and
bottoming out, brush whipping the windows.
We hit Seabreeze
eventually. Big anticlimax. Couple beach shacks and a strand on the far side
of marshes, and that’s about it. The cabins perch on stilts, and several
of them seem to have been abandoned to rot. Where were the semi-amphibious natives,
where was the evil stink of fish? No one’s around but some woman on a raised
porch, stolid and wide-hipped and eternal, sucking dirt off a floormat with
a Handi-Vac. Also some houses overgrown with weeds–FOR SALE. Also a cur
straining at a chain. Delaware’s visible through the mist on the other
side of the estuary. Delaware’s no picnic, but where were the "endless
avenues of fishy-eyed vacancy and death"? We’d have settled for a
the car so we could look over the beach. Cabal slouched around to the trunk
and began to download warm and vaguely melancholy beers from the vicinity of
the wheelwell. Seabreeze was another meaningful place that, in a culture that
needs them and that’s destroying them, didn’t exist.
along southern Jersey in the rain, through Cabal’s old haunts–he’s
from southern Jersey, a 47-year-old orphan child of Camden, that horror city
(one might reasonably choose to live in Innsmouth rather than in Camden) that
at some point in the last generation slouched out to the shed, wrapped its lips
around the barrel of a shotgun and blew itself away.
in biker bars in the few still-unspoiled margins of this suburbanizing coast.
The point was to have a drink and give Cabal a chance to crawl in his rheumatic
splay-footed gait past the bruisers on their stools and go yah hah hah hah
hah hah hah! as he scratched his way over to the juke. Piled back into his
car to drive through sheets of rain, and we couldn’t read the road signs,
and we lost ourselves in the villages, and Cabal pulled U-turns as the beer
signs glowed from the groceries, as comforting from our perspective under the
rain as a nightlight is to a child. (Lear should have had a beer sign out on
the heath–he wouldn’t have carried on so.)
through the village of Bridgeton, where Cabal was born to the mother who abandoned
him. He suspects he’s the product of a date-rape, or worse.
a fucking Deep One! You can tell! I’m half fucking fish! You can tell from
my unblinking fucking eyes! My mother fucked a Deep One! Yah hah hah,"
and etc.–degenerating into a smoker’s cough, Cabal’s chest vibrating
with phlegm, his bloodshot eyes squinting behind those tinted eyeglasses that
he wears that are worn exclusively by Lebanese pimps, old stoners like himself
and schoolteachers who like to spend a lot of time in the boys’ room. You
choose at random one of Bridgeton’s houses, and imagine that there took
place within it, almost half a century ago, Cabal’s lonesome nativity.
in southern coastal Jersey, you have to deal with the juxtapositions: the margins
of the good old towns up against the strips, the malls killing off the old commercial
centers. In the name of what? So much of being an American these days is mourning
an irrecoverable loss, for the way they’re wiping from the continent the
last resistant nodes against the obliterating sprawl, the last places where
your body can fit itself comfortably into a humane geography. It’s conceivable
there might have been a time when you could have imagined, despite everything,
something redemptive about the idea of American "progress," and allied
your will with it. You think of Whitman, captivated by the energy of American
commerce and industry, equating capitalist vitality with the liberty and the
deeply meaningful vernacular culture of the cities he loved–Brooklyn, Manhattan
and even his adopted hometown of Camden. There might have been a time when to
think of America was to think of the possibility of an urban civilization–to
think of the sort of fecund city culture in which Boston and Philadelphia artisans
could grow the seeds of a revolution. Now you think of a lumbering suburban
empire, spreading its carceral blight across a continent and a world.
I was stunned
by Asbury Park–that fantastic desolation. In my innocence, I had expected
a tawdry but viable working-class seaside carnival town, not unlike Coney Island.
Cabal shrugged when we pulled in to the bombed-out shore city the next day.
We’d spent the night near, and breakfasted in, the wonderful beach community
of Ocean City. "You’ll see. It’s bad news. Camden by the sea."
He was right.
Shells of buildings jut from the rubble. You might as well be standing in some
precinct of postwar Stalingrad. Asbury Park, that once-magical crystallization
of lights, that city that must have been one of the great repositories for American
dreams–you wonder what must it have been like to sail, generations ago,
off Asbury’s shores, and see the merry explosion of glittering neon, the
pulsing carnival lights, glowing and hissing and throbbing in the distance,
there on the land, on the far side of the lavender swells. How many places like
Asbury Park does a civilization have to kill before it’s no longer possible
to consider it legitimate?
fascinated by the ghostly disembodied bits of information you can find shooting
around in the void of the Web. You can trace the arc of a city’s history
by culling orphaned data. You’d start with historical certainties:
all started in 1871 when James A. Bradley, a New York manufacturer, bought an
uninhabited 500 acre tract of woodland for $90,000. In poor health, Bradley
sought refuge and peace in this restful place. After a short stay in Asbury
Park and with his health restored, Bradley threw all his energies into building
a seashore resort that would be ‘second to none.’ The city was named
in honor of Bishop Francis Asbury and Asbury Park was incorporated as a City
on March 25, 1897."
a staple in Asbury Park’s downtown, the famous multi-level Steinbach’s
Department Store on Cookman Avenue. The store was located in the heart of Downtown
Asbury Park and served as the pillar of the retail community. The store opened
Amusements at Lake Ave. & the Boardwalk. Built 1887, an addition added in
Hotel & Motel… It’s Modern… It’s Luxurious… A New Luxury
Motel… Each Room Has Its Own Private Terrace… A Fabulous New Catering Hall
Just Completed… Open All Year…"
collect those passages that address the juxtaposition of a remembered Asbury
Park with the disaster the city represents right now:
grandmother lived in Asbury Park from 1950 to 1978. I visited her each summer.
My visits were filled with rides on the Swan Boats, Skip-bo games, salt water
taffy, sandy feet and wonderful walks on the boards. When I [t]ook my husband
back to see the shore in 1990 I was shocked. I cried. He never got to see even
a glimpse of the childhood joys."
was born (1948) and raised in Asbury Park. I have such fond memories that I
cry every time I go home and see the depressed state of my beloved city. It
was a wonderful, safe place to grow up. Its (not it’s, which means it is)
1.2 miles created a buffer from the rest of the world.
went to Asbury Park on Friday. We knew that Asbury Park and the boardwalk were
pretty much deserted, but nothing could have prepared us when we walked up to
the boardwalk…the desolation. We both cried. It was very sad. We took photo’s
[sic] of all the p[l]aces we remembered."
end with stunned evocations of a present degradation:
boardwalk is deserted and in decay. Many beaches are closed and unsafe for bathers.
The buildings still standing are boarded up or falling down. With few exceptions,
the city is truly a ghost-town. Though closed through most of the 1980s, the
Berkeley-Carteret Hotel still stands and continues to operate as a first-class
hotel in what appears to be a war-torn third-class country."
can a community just disappear right off the map? Asbury Park reminded me of
Havana, or even war-torn Sarajevo."
Park is the Beirut of NJ and normally should be avoided at all costs."
Asbury Park was filled with
gays for the Jersey Pride festivities, which are presumably held in that grand
ruin because–because why? Was Newark unavailable? They strolled hand-in-hand
amidst heaps of crumbled rebar, like streamlets of dye dispersing through sewage.
Did they know where they were? Grease smoke poured from the kitchens of the
bars. You can walk right out the back doors of saloons in Asbury Park and into
gardens strewn with wire, bottles, chunks of motors, twisted furniture, snarls
of rope. Hard local whites, the last men standing, sit there on wrecked chairs,
standing sometimes to walk over and peer at the degraded world through the fencing.
punk matinee thundered through the air from the Stone Pony. Since few buildings
are still standing in Asbury Park, there’s no spatial context to the place,
no demarcations. You don’t need to turn corners in Asbury Park, and that’s
somehow monstrous. Your body wanders on unnatural diagonals through the weed
fields, but the mind requires right angles for its sanity. A seaside bowl filled
day, up on the beach at Sandy Hook, we gazed up toward the city: the World Trade
Center towers to the distant north, taller than life, the poles around which
the wet world revolves. We stood there near the high-tide line, Cabal and I,
and watched hippies wade into the surf, clutching their bodies as they staggered
from the undertow, and we felt the world whip along under the cold diamond stylus
of the sun.
the parking lot, an undercover officer glares from his parked chromed SUV: a
bullheaded black guy, windows open, doing surveillance. I don’t approve
of this entrapment thing. Some underage kid innocently opens a beer in the parking
lot, and next thing he knows the SUV will be on his back, he’ll be hauled
in for exercising his birthright under the American sky.
just know that’s a cop," Cabal’s saying, opening the trunk.
"I’ll bet anything that guy’s a cop." Cabal has a
ravenous appetite for marijuana, and so was disappointed by the policeman’s
presence. He had wanted to smoke some before driving home. "There’s
no way that guy’s not a cop."
lot in the middle of the Jersey Nowhere, with the smell of salt and the seabirds
whipping through the huge day–and you’re under surveillance. Incredible.
The huge SUV orders the world around it, it draws the parking lot’s lines
up around itself to make a net to ensnare you with. We leaned against the car,
Cabal drinking his warm beer.
the keys and let me drive out of here."
on. Just hold on. If he comes over I’ll put it in my mouth and eat it.
I never carry more than I can eat."
couldn’t wait the guy out–I drove Cabal’s car back to the turnpike
and joined the parade home.
just know that’s a cop."
of America, near the beach, here’s your precise mathematical ratio, here’s
what the ratio is on some days: one policeman for every two citizens. A two-for-one
deal in some of the corners of this surveilled America. You won, sir. You waited
us out. Congratulations.