He appeared “Pardon?” “Smoke?” Despite “Light?” I unzipped He held “You can “Pardon?” His voice “Well hello His mouth “Yeah,” I had to “Why do “Oh,” I “Ratty ol’ I straightened “What’s “I’m He shook This time “Wear that “Not much “You’re Man, now “I uhh…” I caught “Well, Bob,
in front of me as I stood outside the office building, having a smoke, waiting.
He was a few inches taller than me, but thin. He wore a dark sweatshirt with
the hood pulled up over his head and tied tight beneath his chin. His hands
and face, from what I could tell of them, were coated with shit. He had tiny
dog eyes and his front teeth were missing. His mouth moved, but I heard no sound.
I asked. His mouth moved again, and I squinted at him, trying to read the pattern.
He gestured with two fingers at my left hand, then at his own face.
I asked. He nodded quickly, almost imperceptibly.
how expensive these things were becoming, I reached into my breast pocket, slid
one out and handed it to him. He put it to his mouth for a moment, then pulled
it away, letting it dangle between his fingers, his hand hanging in the air
in front of his chest. He stared at me.
I asked. He didn’t even nod this time, but his eyes moved slightly, so
I took that as a yes.
my bag, reached in and pulled out a new book of matches. They were good matches.
Easy to light.
out his left hand, and I dropped the matches into his palm.
keep those,” I said. I looked around, waiting for him to leave. He put the cigarette
in his mouth again, then opened the book and pulled a match loose. He tried
to light the match once, twice, but it didn’t catch. He stood there in
front of me with the cold cigarette in his mouth, the dead matches in his hands.
His lips moved again, and I began to wonder if he had any trouble keeping that
cigarette in place, what with having no teeth and all.
I asked again. He was clearly trying to say something he expected me to understand.
I put my head down and moved my ear closer. This was a dangerous move, I know—I’d
been suckered in by the whole “whispering” routine before. I wasn’t expecting
anything sneaky from this guy, though—it just seemed to be his way.
came out in the tiniest of hoarse whispers. “Name’s Bob,” he said.
was at it again. “You work in here?” His left hand (the one with the matchbook)
raised slightly, gesturing at the building behind me.
I nodded, but didn’t tell him anything more. I wasn’t in the mood
for any new friends hanging around the office. His mouth began to move, and
once again, I lowered my head and turned my ear his way. My hearing isn’t
so hot anymore, but much to my surprise, I usually do a pretty good job of interpreting
the uninterpretable—the incoherent mumblers and the old rummies who feel
they have something of great importance to share with me. Sometimes it takes
a few good minutes of hard listening to latch onto the patterns and cadences,
trying to home in on any familiar words. Once I do, however—once I hook
into it—things are fine. Even if I miss a few words here and there, I can
oft-times fill in the blanks. At least well enough to get the gist of things.
ask this guy to repeat himself a few times—he only spoke a few words at
a stretch—before I caught it. At least what he said made sense—which
wasn’t always the case with the mumblers.
you wear that hat?” he rasped, barely audible.
said, straightening up again. “I like this hat. What’s wrong with it?”
I leaned in again to catch his response.
again. “It’s useful,” I told him. “It keeps my hair out of my face.” I
figured that was enough. I turned my ear again.
with the hair?”
his head. Or maybe it was a small tremor of some kind. “No,” he whispered. “That’s
I just shrugged, not thinking at the time (Morgan would later point this out)
that my appearance was being critiqued by a bum who was covered in his own filth.
hat,” he said, gesturing slightly, “that hair. Everybody sees you. Everybody
of anybody knows me,” I told him. Christ, I was in absolutely no mood for the
Wise Bum shtick. As time passed, it was becoming easier to understand what the
hell he was saying, but I was no longer sure I wanted to. His cigarette remained
unlit. I took a quick look around, hoping for an out. I couldn’t just step
back inside the building, figuring he’d just follow me.
trying to be something,” he continued. “Something not like everyone.
I know why they executed Socrates—because you get right down to it, Socrates
was a big, ugly, smelly pain in the ass.
I began. “I’m not…”
some movement out of the corner of my left eye. Someone was headed toward us.
I looked up and saw Morgan. She looked worried. Oh, thank God.
gotta go,” I said, raising a hand in a quick farewell. “You enjoy that smoke
now, y’hear?” I took Morgan by the arm, spun her around and headed away
from him, back down 7th Ave. toward a place where, with luck, no strangers would
see fit to point out my obvious failings.
I had to